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30 May 2013 @ 09:57 am
Man, they must have done some good drugs. Title says everything.

Norwegian book covers on drugs
Current Mood: mischievousmischievous
Current Music: Kamelot, "Memento Mori"
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
17 May 2013 @ 11:57 am
I'm feeling a furious bitterness after reading this study of how BP destroyed peoples's health and silence popular outrage about the Deepwater oil spill. In my new mental state, even if everyone else forgets, I'll remember. I can, in fact, hold a grudge, it just depends on who I'm targeting with my rage. Compromise is the opposition of ruthlessness, but how much can I hold in me?

I'm used to anger and rage. I like to say that I don't have any other emotions except for them. I doubt it's true, but Bog Cripes, does it feel like it. (Suddenly, I wonder why I'm still using the euphemisms for religious profanity. If I was real ballsy and wanted to burn some bridges, I wouldn't anymore. God knows I don't do that in my fiction.)

This made me outright bitter and unhappy, paired with the article about people being test tubes for toxic waste and murderous chemicals. I have a decent idea why I'm feeling that way, and there's a chance I could be closer to alleviating it...

... but in a way, I hope I don't alleviate it. I'm just disgusted with the world right now with the sense that no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, we're fucked. When the things I see are filled with bare, dead, empty environments, there's something wrong going on. It could be possible that the whole point here is that something wrong is always going on.

That's the worst thought, really. It's no wonder that I flip between "I can't sleep" and "I don't expect to live into tomorrow."

EDIT: Oh, right, include the link. It shows you how unhappy I am. BP covers the spill.
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Serenity, "Changing Fate"
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
13 May 2013 @ 10:43 am
Boingboing post a fascinating series of photographs about digitizing at the Library of Congress. Gaze upon that 1481 book.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: in the mouth of madness down in the darkness
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
13 April 2013 @ 10:04 am
Giant, 22-foot wasp nest found in an abandoned Spanish house. I am now shaking in pure terror. I hate hate wasps but I still want to visit and see this nightmare for reals.

Giant wasp nest
Current Mood: nauseatednauseated
Current Music: the screams of wasps in my head
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
13 April 2013 @ 09:32 am
You know what just now occurred to me after months with more books published? I barely ever actually announce my new books out here on the blog. I know why I've done that - I stay away from anything remotely approaching promotion - but it does seem sort of strange to keep the books quiet and let them build by themselves when I publish them.

A part of that ties into focus and distractions; for how much things I have going on at any given time, whether it's creative work or just keeping myself busy finding more creative work to do, there's probably a real good argument that I have attention deficit. Though, how many people overloaded with information don't have some kind of it?

I'll try to start updating. Though the new production always, always comes first.
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Argle, "Relics of an Ancient Race"
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
Current NASA lead says that NASA won't take point in going to the moon. Instead, they're completely focused on hitting asteroids and going to Mars. An asteroid I can comprehend, but Mars still seems like crazy times. But we did hit the Moon fairly recently...

No moon any time soon
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Argle, "Relics of an Ancient Race"
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
20 March 2013 @ 01:41 pm
I think I have a new addiction and reason to go snooping for epic trailer music. I can put my own books to trailers. Two Steps from Hell, Sons of War suits Vespasian 3 to an extent I might have to write a trailer when I finish.
Current Mood: energeticenergetic
Current Music: Two Steps from Hell, "Sons of War" (:P)
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
18 March 2013 @ 10:54 am
Did one farm boy really hit a million-in-one shot against the most heavily defended battle station in history? Or was it secretly planned?

Death Star Truther Parody
Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: rar rar
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
24 February 2013 @ 01:25 pm
Although I'm pretty sure I've heard of this before it's still pretty disturbing. Corporations use behavioral science about habits and patterns to predict what people are going to buy and what conditions in their lives will lead them to that. Apart from the amount of information they know about you, which itself is disturbing, it's freaky to see how they predict parts of your lives from the information.

It's well into the type of stuff that should get me feeling upset, and probably does on some creepy, subconscious level. Things like this are a big part of why I feel anxious and nervous most of the time.

How corporations can learn way too much about you and use it
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Kobayashi Miku, "Bios"
Seeker of Benevolent Chaos
08 February 2013 @ 02:55 am
I... I... can't even begin to describe how mind-boggling cool these photographs of star trails from the international space station look. The only thing I can do in response is try to write as much as I possibly can so I can try to describe the sheer amazement.

ISS Star Trails
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: Hayashibara Megumi, "Give a Reason"