Possibilities

Starvation and hatred

Thinking about food typically makes me almost sick to my stomach and honestly, stories like this about someone hanging on to the edge, don't help that feeling in the slightest. But I think it's important that I realise just how dark things can get. I'm much, much closer to having this happen than anything 'good', and I always will be, and I can't let myself forget.

The 'Farm' Bill
Paranoid

Receiving a National Security Letter

Cripes, I am paranoid. Put "receiving" with "national security" and it brings to mind apocalyptic marks of beasties and things of that sort. It's a pretty quick leap of thought but that's where I specialize, I think!

That said, this is something real, the founder of the Internet Archive describes what it was like to get a national security letter and challenge the govt about it. It's creepy as hell: the guy can't tell his family about it, because he can't tell anybody about it, evar.

It doesn't sound anything like the US when we used to be the good guys. This kind of secrecy and distrust doesn't fade in a moment, either. It stays and roams around and, if it's accepted to enough of an extent for a long enough time, becomes another tradition that doesn't change.

I can't say I view that as a good thing, but the people who come up with it aren't psychopathic killers, either, at least for the most part. They're just human, like the rest of us.

What it's like to get a national security letter
Paranoid

Laurie Penny interviews Pussy Rioters

It's a good insight into the conditions of people on the run. I write about people in their condition a lot and it's always much worse than I can imagine. No trust, no sleep, anyone might betray you in a flash.

It also gives me a horrible view into how sexist and vile the world really is. I don't have a problem with strong, opinionated, tough women, but lots and lots of people do. I'm glad I'm this way but it twists my guts at the sickness of most of humanity.

"People fear us because we are feminists.